My pre- and post-stroke cognitive experience

The most notable difference between my pre- and post-stroke cognitive experience was the dramatic silence that had taken up residency inside my head. I wasn't that I couldn't think anymore, I just din't think in the same way. Communication with the external world was out. Language with inear processing was out. But thinking in pictures was in. Gathering glimpses of information, moment by moment, and then taking time to ponder the experience was in. ....................

I never really ponder what it would be like to lose my mind, more specially , my left mind. I wish there were a safe way to induce this awareness in people. It might prove to be enlightening.

Imagine if you will, what it would feel like to have each of your natural faculties systemically  peeled away form your consciousness. First imagine you lose your ability to make sense of sound coming in through the ears. You are not deaf, you simply hear all sound as chaos & noise. Second, remove your ability to see the defined forms of any objects in your space. You are not blind, you simply cannot see  3-dimensionally, or identify color. You have no ability to track an object in motion or distinguish clear boundaries between objects. In addition, common smells become so amplified that they overwhelm you, making it difficult for you to catch your breath.

No longer capable of perceiving temperature, vibration, pain or proprioception (position of limbs), your awareness of your physical boundaries shift. the essence of your energy expends as it blends with the energy around you, and you sense that you are as big as the universe. Those little voices inside your head, reminding you of who you are and where you live, become silent. You lose memory connection to your old emotional self and the richness of this moment, right here, right now, captivates your perception. Everything, including the life force you are radiates pure energy. with childlike curiosity, your heart soars in peace and your mind explores new ways of swimming in a sea of euphoria. The you ask yourself, how motivated would you be to come back to a highly structured routine?